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Standing in the checkout line
The electric hum of florescent lights
Over my head like some kind of manufactured halo.
I don’t believe in God,
But I wish I knew what heaven is.
Because fluffy white clouds and harp music
Sounds as perfect as a half-rotten apple
Buried in the produce drawer of my fridge.
And if I got sent there
I think I’d be begging for something else.
A way out.
A way back.
A way down.
The steady beep of the register scanner is the sound of my focus on life support.
I imagine heaven is a library
So epic that there are no walls,
Just 300 foot tall bookshelves as far as the eye can see.
Jam-packed with every tome, volume, and scrap
Ever created, but where I read everything
On an e-reader because when it comes to books,
I love the smell, but hate the weight.
I imagine that in heaven,
No knowledge is restricted and all of it is sacred.
That facts are not strained through
The coffee filter of faith.
I’m loading my purchases on to the conveyer belt
Like I’m loading my hopes and dreams in to storage boxes.
Tucked away in the back most corner of my mind
To make room for the shiny new set
That surfaced the day I pushed another life in to the world.
His eyes are the color of an April sky when rain is on the horizon,
And his moods are an unstable amalgamation
Of joyful curiosity and explosive reactions.
I’m forking over cash like I’m spending time and effort
To make sure he has all the opportunities I squandered
In the hopes that he doesn’t throw them back in my face
The way I did to my mother.
I’m taking on full shopping bags
Like I’m taking on responsibilities.
Like a sinking ship takes on water,
I’m a cup full of thoughts and musings and I’m pouring myself out
On to the concrete of reality.
I’m putting my opinions and ideas on the line
And bolstering my defenses with integrity.
Fighting to stitch this patchwork quilt of
Inspirations and facts
Dreams and reality.
Because I can’t imagine a child’s future
As anything less than limitless
Any more than I can imagine
Heaven without a library.


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